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Let me first start by apologizing for the delay in updates!
I´m a loser, what else can I say?
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This one was harder to write and you´ll see why!
I hope you guys are still with me... enjoy!
Chapter Five:
Coming Together... The Consummation of the Trinity...
JPOV
“A penny for your thoughts,” Edward whispered close to my ear, startling me from my haze. Instantly, my body was enveloped in warmth as strong arms wrapped themselves around my waist, pulling me flush to his body. Automatically, I melted into the warmth of his embrace. “Where were you just now, little one?” The sound of his velvety voice using the pet name he’d given me, had my entire body tingling with warmth and a smile creeping up my lips. “You didn´t seem to hear me when I came in.”
“Just thinking about the past,” I confessed, never taking my eyes off of the bustling streets of downtown Chicago. “Remembering how my life used to be.”
“Should I be worried?” He spoke the question so softly, that I wasn´t sure he intended for me to hear it, but there was no mistaken the hint of fear underlying his tone.
Turning so I could look him the eyes, I reached out a tentative hand and gently stroked his cheek. “Worried, no,” I shook my head with conviction. “I on the other hand should be.” Unable to hold his gaze, I looked away as I gave voice to my own insecurities and fears. “Look at you,” I waved in the direction of all his perfect sexy glory, “and then look at me,” I shrugged noncommittally. “We´re like filet mignon and potted meat… why settle for processed, when you can have choice USDA?”
Reeling from the weight of my display of honest word-vomit, I turned back to staring out of the window. Feeling Edward´s pity and rejection was one thing, but facing it head on was a horse of a totally different color.
Despite my newfound feelings of love and belonging, I was no fool; Edward was with Bella and I was just their new little plaything. As sick and twisted as it sounded, I was happier than I could ever remember being, and that included my brief stint with Felix.
I was a masochist and would take whatever scraps they were willing to give me.
Deep in thought, I jerked slightly, when I felt a firm grip on my forearm. Spinning me around to face him, Edward placed a finger under my chin and pushed, bringing my gaze to meet his. Lost in the swirling pools of his endless emerald green eyes, I was at war with myself.
I´d been living with Edward and Bella for just shy of three weeks now and since losing my mother, I couldn’t never remember being happier. Still, there was a part of me that was deathly afraid.
Afraid to let my guard down and let them in completely.
The walls that I´d carefully constructed to protect my heart, had at one time brought me peace; I wore them like a suit of armor. Now, they were just constricting, suffocating, making it hard for me to breathe.
What the hell are you doing? My conscience screamed. Look at him! He´s bearing his soul for us! Bella and Edward are different, they would never hurt you, never hurt us! They´re not like HIM they won´t take what you aren´t ready to give!
Bella and Edward were different!
And no, they would never hurt me, at least not intentionally!
I rolled the words around in my head a few times and had an epiphany. I´d been with them three weeks, and not one time had either of them push me to do something that I wasn´t ready for. My mind quickly drifted off to my first night at the estate and how tenderly Edward took care of me.
Okay, well what can I say, "Boys will be boys!"
Hope you enjoyed this little snippet and the chapter will be up tonight!
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